This afternoon, I rewatched, The Fault in Our Stars, which is based on the young adult novel by John Green and features one of my favorites, Shailene Woodley. Watching the movie this afternoon reminded me of a couple of things, including my love for literature and simplicity. Over the years, I have noticed that my heart’s desire to live surrounded by nature and write all day is increasing, yet I still find myself immersed in teaching English literature to mostly uninterested students, who can barely write or understand the books they “read.”
In the movie, Shailene’s character is dying from cancer, and she meets another cancer ridden teenager, who falls in love with her and takes her to Amsterdam to meet the author of her favorite book. Throughout her journey, there is a sense of acceptance for her fate, and simple pleasures like having a picnic and writing emails become her norm. Maybe most people who watch this movie pay attention to the bigger scenes, but for me, the beauty of this story is in the everyday moments like sitting in an old playground and discussing a favorite book with a friend; I no longer have time in my schedule to enjoy these types of moments on a daily basis, and even when I do, they seem rushed and sporadic.
It seems the older we get, the more chaotic life becomes. I know this has been said a thousand times by millions of people, but there really is no slowing down in the midst of raising a family and building a life. After recently turning thirty, it seems like my life is nowhere near where I want it to be even though I have almost everything I always wanted. It’s not that I am unaware of my blessings, I just want actual time to enjoy them. No rush time spent together, no scurrying to finish a cup of coffee, and no endless thoughts of financial worry.
The reality of life is that it goes too fast, but there is nothing I yearn for more than quiet days spent reading/writing, enjoying lunch with my family, and maybe even riding a bicycle for old time’s sake. Simplicity, underrated and difficult to come by.