I found myself rehearsing my monologue for acting class and questioning whether it was ready or not. I must tell you, doubt is one of my biggest struggles and as an artist, it can be a killer. It can destroy creativity in an instant, leaving you empty and disappointed. I had to quickly take myself out of that state of mind and move along with my rehearsal. We present our monologues tomorrow and inside I am a hot mess. Thankfully, I have been provided with the tool of relaxation (I picture my college professor in moments like this telling me to kick, punch and yell my frustration out of my body). I must do this, trust me. Relaxation is key in acting and allowing your creative juices to flow properly.
AAAAAAHHHH!!! This is how my brain feels right now. It is filled with so many thoughts that I am convinced it is going to burst in the next couple of seconds. On that note, maybe it’s best that I come back to this. Too many thoughts. Simply, just too many thoughts. I will now lay in bed, work through my crazy brain and wait for “The Walking Dead.” Later gators.